dream of tongues

On an ocean shore, or rather, a small bay: one can see both the calm open sea, and what looks like a narrow tongue of sand separating it from the bay. A Wild Girl makes her way across the shallow water, tearing off her clothes. Countless animals, mostly grizzly bears, approach from the other side, trying to reach the mainland. The Girl inadvertently vexes one of the bears, and might have gotten killed if the bear weren't driven by some strange instinct towards the shore. The Girl, however, is utterly unaware of the danger. She reaches the sandy peninsula, naked, and starts running madly across the desert. The dunes are becoming more and more varied. Ephemeral caves appear, hollowed out by the wind, and vanish, buried by the shifting sand. There is one that remains in the landscape suddenly become firm. The cavity is the size of an old hollow oak: two people could easily stand in it. Someone comes and hangs a jar from the ceiling. The glass seems to have been blackened by smoke and the receptacle gives a rather sinister impression. The Girl approaches it with curiosity. At that moment I can see her eyes, but not her whole figure. Inside the jar, asleep, there hangs a small bat. It is visibly growing and its wings are able to extend outside the glass through two narrow slits, previously imperceptible. Yet the animal remains trapped, and I wonder whether it has enough air to breathe, and whether someone will come to its rescue.
In front of the cave, there are dead bodies of a few other bats, still trapped in their jars. I realize that this is some sort of a cruel experiment which intends to test whether a bat is able to learn the human tongue, and which, from the very start, was doomed to fail: that is why there is never anyone to record the results.
The bat awakes. It becomes aware of its prison. Moving with mysterious determination, it perfoms an incredible maneuver: by agitating the jar from within, it manages to roll it along the vertical wall of the cave, and then let it swing back and break against the frame of the cave's entrance.
Outside, there is a tree. In its shade and as if formed of the shadow, the bat, standing erect, much larger now, speaks. Clearly articulated syllables can be heard, there is no doubt about it, for the very first time. It's a new language: beautiful, untamed...

Ładny dzień (A Nice Day) by Jan Jakub Kolski

How and why certain things make their way into our lives is mysterious. That they come to occupy an important place in it might not perhaps be even as marvelous as the fact that the place had not existed there before, and yet as soon as it had opened up, 'before' ceased to exist.

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Impossible to stop watching Jan Jakub Kolski's A Nice Day. The 17-minute film is a day-long night-long poem, with an intricate syntax of simple words, image-motifs, monochrome narratives, sound particles... How to write, not on it but in its presence? how to muster enough silence so as not to speak in its stead? To write, perhaps, as one laughs, or weeps. The way one waits.

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...the tear of love and forgiveness sweet,
And submission to death beneath his feet;
The tear shall melt the sword of steel,
And every wound it has made shall heal.

(William Blake, The Grey Monk)

[Draft. Fragments]

Within the circle of the flame, within the circle of rain, I weep, and I burn.

Your face guards the trace of every tear. My eyes caress the sacred script.

My breast swells in the wake of your plow: fragrant earthfolds.

You draw liquid darkness in your pail, and pour pearling light over my flesh.

Rye grains in your pocket rattling softly like pennies. In your hands, they turn into birds.

You braid silence into your hair. Its whisper opens my dreams.

I know by heart the furrows of your field.

Z podziękowaniami dla T. za ładny dzień

Films by Peter Hutton (Cinéma du réel, Centre Pompidou)

(1)

"The world within reach": these words, uttered by Gaston Méliès in reference to the movie camera, are carved onto a little plastic plaque attached to Peter Hutton's camera. They are synonymous with another phrase: "to inhabit the world poetically." The poetic camera is not a "window onto the world"; it doesn't open onto the foreign, the unfamiliar, onto a promise of exotic variety amidst quotidian tediousness. The world within reach is just that: what of the world is within one's reach. In French, Gaston Méliès might have said, perhaps, "le monde à la portée de la main." Yet it is not the hand that reaches. The hand grabs. The hand connects the world and the mouth.
Reaching the world, yet abandoning touch to the realm of desire, rending desire for that world within reach, the camera, always fixed, embraces a world fragment, as arbitrary as life, and records its ephemeral form.

Elect a passing thought as your abode. A small patch of sunlight traveling across the mountain slope, now swelling into an outcry of color. The bleached façade of a house risks being splintered in the blaze. A white pang. The wind patches the cloud.

(2)

The image is silent. It is not a pure or an essential image. Merely an image within reach. A world apart from words. Where words remember, the image forgets. Imagines forgetting. You who are looking at it, forget already. Forget yourself in the image.

Great distance and great proximity free objects of their contours. Forgotten, un-named, they forge the image.

Electric flickers, shards of moonlight, shivering screen of muddy water. Nothing else.

The gesture of a grey hull suspended in grey haze: a steel deck, the tip of a mast, adrift in white noise. Or yet: the dark wall of the woods, separating twilight and the river, grazed by a silver gleam: the advance of a prow without a ship.

The image is silent and nearly still. Movement reduced to slight oscillation, to a momentary intervention, or to a faint transition in mood, takes film to the limit of photography.

(3)

Peter Hutton said, half-jokingly: "Feel free to fall asleep during the screening. My films are kind of made for sleeping. I might fall asleep myself."

Contemplation of the film image puts one in a state of reverie, its intensity akin to the alertness experienced in a dream; on the verge of falling asleep, yet as if from within the dream, where slipping into unconsciousness would be to awake, unsure of the direction of the passage.

What does the image dream about?

The camera transforms the world fragment into a dream image. In that sense, it is not a document, mindful of the historical context it hopes to expose or subvert. The image possesses its own temporality that is the loss of any sense of time. Timelessness of the ephemeral.

(4)

Silent, the image ceases to be a representation of the world. It is what it imagines. Silent, the viewer becomes absorbed in the image the way one gets lost in one’s thoughts. In the darkness of the movie theater, you are turned inside out like a glove. The image of your thoughts, which are not yours, only clouds, passing, unwritten. Blank thoughts, grey thoughts, forgotten even before they are formulated. Entirely image. The cinema within. The within outside.

Cease naming things. The sky below the rugged crest, the sea above the fog, the island beneath its shadow. Passage from grey-blue to black-grey to green-white and black. Grain, rock, vapor, mist, sand. Brushed, smudged, torn. Granite tattered by the sky’s edge. Land ruffled by the wind. Clouds folded and solidified in twilight.

perhaps observing a child in a library

Aimless life. A simple statement. Even as in defiance of metaphors a red oil crayon held awkwardly and as if by accident traces discontinuous curves, lines, zigzags, elipses, indifferent to the distinction between the paper and the table, disrupting any continuity, and then breaks, tearing the paper, the tear and the break do not mean death. A concentration of saliva exacerbates the redness of the crayon. The paper is rumpled, about to be thrown away, but then comes a change of mind: the rubbing of the drop of saliva arouses curiosity. The paper is folded with meticulous care, old creases smoothed out, as much as it is possible. It is then, perhaps, that a sudden desire is felt: to taste papercrayon, red papercrayon on the tongue. It takes time. Perhaps longer than a family dinner. Impossible to compare. Papercrayon is not food. Food means eating-to-grow. An experiment. Papercrayon tastes exactly like papercrayon. The experiment might have to be repeated endlessly. Or abandoned. There are some red marks on the table and no hint of an image. It's time to go.

who dissertateth shall lose his fondest marbles

"Le matin de la pensée" (in reference to Heraclitus), "le matin de la civilisation" (commonplace). Useless mornings. Petty nostalgia sanctified by linguistic cliché for a time when a finger pointing at the sun directed the gaze toward something previously unseen.

dream

i agreed to handle a snake. the snake was deadly, poisonous, despite its age and the fact that it could move using only two vertebrae. in order to transfer it, they injected it with a paralyzing agent. it was going to wear off within 10 minutes. i held the snake at the end of a stick and transferred it into a large plastic bag. there was some soil at the bottom, with plants growing out of it. but you can't expect a snake to survive in an airtight bag. so i left an opening. the bag was in my apartment [not any i ever lived in], in a room resembling a greenhouse, most of it overgrown by bamboos, ivy, mosses. the snake climbed out of the bag and remained still in the air for a moment, straight as a bamboo stalk, and then, as if frightened by the surrounding plants, made a U-turn in the air and crept back into the bag. i dialed the number of the guy who was supposed to come and pick it up. it had all been a scam, no one was going to come. i was afraid of the snake: the tiniest drop of its venom could kill instantly. i would never sleep again. and yet, at that precise moment when it coiled back into the bag, i felt an inexplicable tenderness towards it.

for Alina O.